Friendships

As I prepare for my wedding in June, I have come to realize, I don't have any really good friends. I have friends, yes. I just don't have a single friend that I would want to stand up for me in the wedding. I have had many wonderful friendships in my lifetime. And I wouldn't change those memories (the good ones) for anything.

Most of my friendships have ended abruptly for no reason that I can, after many hours of analyzing, come up with...and still to this day have no idea. It's been several years now since I have had a friend that I could confide anything in. It has been so long that I don't even think that I could have any true best friends again. I don't think I have enough trust or faith in anyone to be able to achieve that again. I've been hurt too many times by "girlfriends" to let myself get too close.

I guess if you get technical, my fiance is all I need or really want. He is my best friend. I just wish he liked to go shopping ;)

It is strange how often a heart must be broken before the years can make it wise.

*The one person I wanted to be in my wedding (MY bestman) will not even be attending the wedding as his girlfriend has an intense hatred for myself and my fiance, has forbidden him to go.