Tomorrow is my 26th birthday. While I feel fine with aging, I am saddened by the thought that I don't really have anything to show for it. I have my husband, but that's it. I don't have any children, I don't have a college degree...at this point I don't see myself ever having one. I don't have any great hobbies, I mean I love to take pictures, but I'm limited to my lil point and shoot. Even still, I'm not great at photography, I'm okay with it but I couldn't ever make a career out of it. I can't do anything else. I have no original ideas, can't write, draw, build, knit, or do anything else crafty.
I'm gonna be 26 and I literally feel physically like I am a 70 year old woman. I have so much pain in my body, I don't know if it's anything to do with the PCOS or not. I would love to find out, but all the doctors think that I just need to lose weight. Well, no matter how much I lose, because I have lost quite a bit, the pain does not go away. Maybe if I lost 100 lbs but what am I supposed to do in the mean time? Suffer?? I can't exercise because of how much pain I am in all the time. My feet, more specifically my left foot (one I have sprained three times in my lifetime) nearly always hurts. I have been to a podiatrist and all he told me was that I had high arches and that wearing custom orthotics would help, alas they did not. It felt as though I had a rubber ball under my foot. Ugh.
I just needed to write out my thoughts because I'm tired of going over them in my head constantly. Hopefully it will help.
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